you summon every ounce of energy left in you, eliciting some self-motivation when you're falling down, for one single purpose, to feel as if you're ascending to success, a big lie and you know it, it runs foul with the order of things, it made me cling on to this belief everyone took up faster than Viagra* , it made me feel i'm falling constantly, it made me panic when i'm too tired to motivate myself, what if i ran out of ideas to motivate myself ? what if i lost the will to do basically anything? what if i can't make a red cape? i fear the afterclap. What would you do (?) cuz i'm literally hitting the ground nose-first at supersonic speed any fucking minute now. Hold them tight.

* nope. In case you're wondering.